---- M E ----
i've been made stupid by others before;
been used and cheated by the least expected one;
fooled by the one i trust;
hurt by the the one i love...

what else do i have to say?
can't do anythin' bout dat
sad though it may be..
it's just that that's what life is..

no matter how you wanted to put things where they should be
no matter how you tried to keep everything in a "safe zone"
still it leaks when it has to..
still it fails when it has to fail..

so let it be..
things happen for a reason
see the positve side of every darkness u'r into..
take it as a lesson not a reason for you to give up..

been there, done that
but i know still one day
whether i like it or not
i'll be confronted with the same situations then

oh well.. than i'll face it whole-heartedly
no matter how much i'll try to get rid of it
i know it just will run after me...
one day i'll still have no choice but to get through it

things happen for a reason
be it bad or good
may that reason be forgetting and letting go of the person i've learned to love
i just have to..

who knows one day, better things might come my way..

thanks for those happenings that brought me tears
thanks for the sadness that gave me hatred to the world
thanks to the loneliness that almost made me give up
and thanks to the hurtings that that i'll never forget..

this is me... my life... so i'l let it be.....

---------cathie-----------

its all bin n d past
i thot d feelin wudnt last
huh! it did...
there's no lookin' back...
life must go on!
no matter what happened
no matter where or how it end
there's always life out there for me...

y..... whyyyy?????.....

its all iv been askin'.....

why???????......

i don't know....

Burn

[Intro]
Girl, understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1]
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think ya gonna change ya
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for you except but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Verse 2]
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-eleven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know its best for you except but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
you know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
[Bridge]
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

[Breakdown]
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for you except but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

- - - - - - - - - -
love me
love you
ur gone
i stayed
waited and waited
but nothing came
i tried
to leave
u came back
u love me-u said
confused-i said
need time
need time
will u wait?
or won't u?
can't do anything f u won't
just be sure of everything
don't wanna cry
don't wanna be hurt
no more....

miss me
miss you
not d reason for us to come back
feelings need be made sure
feelings be proven
in god's time
f god allows
we'll be together back then..

for as long as the feeling are still there
and for as long as the two of us wait
now or later
doesn't really matter
don't really know
we'll see. . .

* . . . . . . . . . *

Hello! "...busy ka? naku mukha
nga...
tagal na
natin di nagkikita...
tagal mo na ako di dinadalaw... alam mo miss na
kita... o sino yang
nagtext sa iyo?... buti pa sa kanya nakapagreply
ka agad... napansin ko
ang dami mong ginagawa talaga... ang dami mo
ring things to do diyan sa
planner mo ah!
mapangarap ka talaga noh?... ang dami mong
plano . nakakatuwa
naman na malaman yan. kasama ba ako sa
plano mo? ano? naku di ka
agad makasagot... sige okay lang alam ko naman
kung ano talaga sagot mo...

nakita kita nung Friday, aga mo umalis sa
office.
alam mo ba, ang akala
ko pupuntahan mo ako. ooppss! hindi pala! TGIF
(THANK God its Friday)
pala kayo ng mga friends mo. umaga ka na nakauwi
ah? naghintay ako
sa'yo. pagpasok mo sa kuwarto mo, di mo ako
napansin... haaay! kawawa ka
naman siguradong kinabukasan masakit ang ulo mo,
tanghali ka na
gigising... Ang dami mong lakad, naghihintay ako
na tayo naman ang
maging magkasama kaya lang sa dami ng schedules
mo sa trabaho at sa
labas ng office parang malabo.

O sige na, balik ka na sa work mo. i might be
eating too much of your
time maging dahilan pa ako para masira ang plano
mo sa araw na ito...
gusto ko lang sabihin sa'yo na nandito lang ako
kapag kailangan mo
ako...pag hindi ka na busy. totoo yon! walang
biro! ayaw mong maniwala?
Ganon kita kamahal kasi! ayaw mo pa ring
maniwala? Haaay! remember this,
kahit singit lang ako lagi sa buhay mo, kahit
biglaan mo lang na
natatawag ako dahil nagulat ka, nasaktan ka,
nauntog ka o dahil part ang
pangalan ko nung binabasa mo sa text, you will
be in my heart always...
trial after trial isipin mo kasama mo ako na
lumalakad, hindi man sa
buhangin, kasama mo pa rin ako... sa lahat plano
mo , kahit hindi mo ako
kasama perfecting it... para mas maging masaya
ka... minsan tayo naman
ang mag-usap ha? minsan ako naman ang dalawin
mo...
miss na talaga kita eh...
sa akin hindi ka singit lang..."

--MAO BA?--

u used to show me you love me
u used to show me you care
u made me feel im so special
that evr'ytime i need you i'l just call

the time did come for the both of us
when we were so glad to be together
i thought that time will never end
that you and i may be forever

so suddenly u lose grip
so suddenly you stayed away
no more love i felt but coldness
no more you beside me but bitterness

a lot of thoughts came over me
wonderin' what i've done and said
never had a clue what went wrong
never had an idea why these all

i've seen all the signs you've shown
heard all the "insults" you've blown
i appreciated your honesty
maybe it was just our destiny

wahihi

unsaon na lang wako kasabot
unsaon na lang wata nagkasinabot
ambot lang gubot pa sa tanang lukot
hala sige magpabugnaw sa ta sa kagubot...
a duh ambot makasapot
a dahhh ambot nawa kos akong buot!!!
nagpuros na lang ta botbot..
saon na lang....ambot!!!
pahuway na lang tah puros gipangsapot...
ambootttt!! ambrrrottt!!!
sabot?!!??

Never

Never is going to be

soon enough for me

to say goodbye

so don't touch me
Who touched me

sorry but my head
would rather leave a thousand thoughts unsaid

than as air they would chill
in sunshine unpleasing

We All Fall Down

Her turn had come. She knew
by heart almost
the lines she was to speak
but gave us, God help her,

the truth
beyond the lines,
beyond the book she dropped,
its pages thrashing to the floor
like broken wings—

the truth
she beat her head upon,
bit into so hard
I could not pry her jaws,
teeth grinding—

the truth beyond us
she saw as ever,
her risen eyes gone white
as bone.

I did what I could,
I held her and held her, seized
with sudden love and knowing
we all fall down.

In the end
I carried her curled in my arms
across one threshold
and another.

> n 0 t H i N g <

We start, then, with nothing, pure zero.
But this is NOT the nothing of negation. For NOT means other than, and other is merely a synonym of the ordinal numeral second. As such it implies a first; while the present pure zero is prior to every first.
The nothing of negation is the nothing of death, which comes second to, or after, everything. But this pure zero is the nothing of not having been born. There is no individual thing, no compulsion, outward nor inward, no law. It is the germinal nothing, in which the whole universe is involved or foreshadowed. As such, it is absolutely undefined and unlimited possibility -- boundless possibility. There is no compulsion and no law. It is boundless freedom.